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alter egos.

July 8, 2009

As you will have noticed, this blog is titled “I am… chase.”  Apart from riffing off Beyoncé’s current album title, the reason for that is a future album I’m going to do, intended to be titled “chase.”  And who is Chase?  Well, a part of me that I think is coming to fruition slowly, I don’t really know a lot about him but I was watching the film Fighting (starring the delectable Channing Tatum, who did a fine job – I also like Dito Montiel’s direction, and enjoyed A Guide to Recognising Your Saints, also starring the delectable Channing Tatum) and I started to think how wonderful (although challenging to say the least) it would be just to get away to another country, start over again and make a life for yourself on your own terms, carve things out for yourself and see just how far you can get when your back is against the wall.  And then I went on to think what name would I pick?  And after a while, I decided “Chase”, because it sounds a bit more American (the film was set in NY), and we’re all looking for something, and I like the idea of chasing something and never giving up.  So that is how Chase was born.

Before Chase, there was “AC”.  AC was born because (and this is the true story I don’t usually tell people!) I was singing along to Mariah Carey records ever since ever (well, the last 12 years anyways), and when she would sing her initials “MC”, I needed to find an equivalent.  “AS” sounded lame, “AG” (my middle name is George – yuckyuckyuck) wasn’t right either, so I decided upon AC and I like to think of him has the more ghetto, gangsta side of me who is a bit more brash and ready with it, whereas Alan is a bit quieter and more refined.  Chase on the other hand is the man that I aim to be.  So I’ve basically moved beyond schizophrenic to multiple personality… but I think that they are all parts that make up the whole of who I am.  I think we are a bunch of contradictions, at least at times, and this is the way I rationalise the existence of those contradictions.

And I’m certainly not the only one who has an alter-ego.  Mariah has Bianca, Ciara has Super C, Beyoncé has Sasha Fierce, Madonna had Dita, Left-Eye had Nicole.  Janet Jackson explored the idea of multiple personalities all looking for love on her Damita Jo album, and rappers such as Nas / Escobar and ODB / Dirt McGirt  used alter-egos and different names to tell stories from different perspectives (as well as create new contracts and exploit legal loopholes).  Look at Sean Combs / Puffy Daddy / Diddy / P.Diddy / Sean John.  After all, maybe it’s healthy to be able to escape one side of yourself and take refuge in another – it allows you maybe to give yourself a breather and collect your thoughts for a little while.  I don’t know why other people do it, I can only speak for myself, but as far as I’m concerned, it’s not a marketing device but more a way just to express a different side of myself and tap into that energy.  Because why not? That way, I know where certain reactions or instincts come from which side of me, and it helps me understand how multi-faceted a person I am and keep track of that.  I guess everyone’s different, but I’m sure (well, according to the list above, I know!) I’m not the only one who does that, and it works for me.  So a little insight into my psyche this evening 😉

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